...in regards to behavioral disorders.

It's been another hard few weeks. Just a few thumbnails and sketches for now.

Work on the "Force of Nature" painting. Slow progress due to refusing to work on it.

"Preoccupation (behavioral disorder)" March 2008

A thumbnail for one of my stories which I may get around to fully illustrating someday, but most likely not so much.

Misc. Life drawings March 2008

...more.

I was doodling a bit and came up with an idea for a weary hero narrative...thing. The hero who is tired from his trials and travels, but who knows he has this one more task...or something lame like that. The problem I am running into is that my antagonist is lame. Just...not doing it for me. I think deciding on the setting will help(I am leaning toward an overgrown, mossy, dark, mirkwood-esque dealy), but I think I am going to go the more "force of nature" route and make the creature itself overgrown and a dangerous and fantastical element of the forest itself. i tried it as just a simple troll type idea and it is very hum drum. I used some vellum and overlayed some horns etc and it's just too...balor.

anyone?

I haven't really been doing much beyond sketching a bit here and there. Projects haven't exactly been slapping in the face so to speak. I have a few screenprints which will be in a limited pressing, but they won't be coming into fruition for a while. Disappointing I know. So, in place of anything better, here are a few selected sketches from my Moleskine.

Altair
Sam "convinced" me to buy Assassin's Creed. By "convinced" I really mean, she mentioned it, and I am a sucker for pretty games. I became a bit addicted and now have to be disappointed that I have to wait around for pt 2 and 3 since I've finished.

Starbucks Portraits

Random sketches

"The Toreador"
I was looking through one of Sam's "Through the lens" books of Ntnl Geographic photos and there was an intense Toreador. I decided to turn it into an illustrator image, this is the sketch for that.

...in keeping up. (and making of the moneys)

"Autumn" - Digital painting/scanned materials - Dec 07

I'm doing very well for once in keeping up as promised with work, and the blog. I am momentarily proud of myself. If anyone recalls, or cares to look back a short ways, I had a poster print called "winter" a while back, which was a sort of digital collage. I've had several requests from random people to buy a print of it, which struck me as a fantastic idea, if only to get my signature floating around out there. So I am in the process of setting up a paypal account, but also in the process of doing more "digital screens". Each will be available as a high resolution 11"x17" digital print for $12. Like I said, the idea is mainly to get my signature out there, and for the novelty of it. By selling them for $12 it isn't exactly as if I am in it for the large bill money. To get each printed on a high quality stock it will cost me about $3, for a mailing tube and postage, probably another $4...so I am in it for about $5 bucks a print.

"Winter" - Digital painting/scanned materials

...in supplement.

Untitled 41 - acrylic/canvas Dec 07

Nothing really to say. I've been drawing much more and enjoying it; but also taking up the mantle of painting again. It hasn't been anything in depth really, I started something when I was walking around nervously tapping my hands and wanting nothing more than to break something...Leah was here so I decided to turn it into something more productive...ish.

I'll start again with real painting I think soon; not just random abstractions to keep my mind on the brush and off of...the things which they tend to fall. I have an 18" x 48" inch canvas that I stretched a month or two back which is sitting under the stairs taunting me like the tell-tale heart. For the moment I am satisfied with painting over old canvases or random masonite / cardboard I find.

...in being a coffee house denizen

Moods - Dec 5 07

so...once again I return after a shorter long while, but a relatively long span nonetheless. On the artistic front, not much new to report. Still trying to figure everything out as best I can. I'm great, then awful, then just surviving, then great again, then horrible...you see the trend. That's just before lunch. I've been writing shortstories a fair bit lately, maybe at some point I will scan them or transcribe into digital media for someone to read. Also I've been teaching myself french, which is going very well. thank you for asking.

I have been in and out of coffeehouses again, doing some sketches. I am still trying to find a style of my own, the best i can come up with as a style, i'm not entirely satisfied with...I want to be an illustrator, and graphic novelist, but not a comic book artist ya? but most of my work is very outline intensive...we'll keep at it. For once i feel like my drawing is GOING somewhere. I've had to do a bit of a u-turn in life in the past 5-6 months because I realized that my life had gotten a bit bleak. Since the turn around I feel much better as a person, my climbing as gotten stronger in leaps and bounds (although we'll see with the recent return of my good ol crap knee injury) but also I feel, parallel to my climbing, I've marked improvement in almost everything, including drawing, and drawing quickly, or getting closer to that thing I want from my "art". Unfortunately, the turn around bore a promise, which has been the only questioningly unsatisfying aspect...Do not get me wrong, I've stuck to my promise, and I believe I've done well. Change in attitude was for her...but it was also for me...but I had this foolish hope that being what I should have been all along would lead to her taking me back. Alas...I must resign to siphoning the specific stolen happiness which only she gives me, and I suspect only she ever could, but doing so in a way which I almost think she feels guilty for. It's not like I lose sleep over it. I didn't sleep before...(lie)

anyway...the important stuff. the art. (so called)

Mugs Coffeehouse Sketches Nov 29 07




Misc Sam sketches : "Sleepwalking" (bottom) Dec 4 07




"Leah" Dec 2 07




Misc: (top) "Julie" Nov 07

...in regional neck pain.

I don't know why it has become such a hastle to sign on to my blog lately. Sure it's been a while, so things may have changed, but apparently so did my email address. Wait...no....it didn't. So what exactly does a person do when their blog INSISTS that their email address is wrong? Argue? Irregardless, I've figured it out; until the next time it happens.

Once again it's been an extended period since my last entry, honestly I just haven't been working as much as I should be. or...at all. It's fair to let everyone in on why, though "everyone" means...Dave, and the random stumbler upon...still, it seems like in lieu of posts, excuses are appropriate. Lately (the past 4+ months) I've been overly devoted to matters of the heart, and the repetitive breaking thereof. I've been having desperate moment after desperate moment, trying to get my life, and the company I keep, to be exactly where I think it needs to be in order to be happy, and make she who means most to me happy as well. The problem has been a difference in opinion of what exactly that means for each of us. Repetitively I've been let down easy, however for such an easy let down, I seem to hit harder and harder when I land. Hit after hit I seem to find less and less of a will to do anything creative, being more willing to sit and stare, or crawl into bed and...lay down and stare. But hey! tonight is something different. Nothing great, but I have SOMETHING. I was playing around on the facebook art boards again, leaving pictures of myself on my friend's boards, here are a few of they.

Also from tonight, a friend of mine, Leah, and I spent the evening at Mugs (a locally owned coffee house) and somehow led into a photo of the two of us from my webcam which we were each drawing upon and otherwise modifying
here are a few of the better results.